Solace in Solitude: Pitfalls without Pity or Piety - 2005
we say we Love
because gOD created LOVE (oh my gawd!)
dishonest as we are, we never say -- we love
cause we want to be loved.
yet hard as it is, there are areas in the body
that none can reach.......heck – and that 'scratch in the back'?
you can half do it yourself –- but if anybody else does it
and of course, there are so many other things HEAVENLY
those that in love can do – adult/children are we –
or is it adult with child pretensions?
but hate to say that we have probably fallen
into a ditch, a quicksand, or a garbage pit?
but strange isn't it –
we have found no replacement
to 'FALLING in Love'?
....no fault of LOVE at all
neither is it the fault of those that
have had a hard fall
or a soft fall,
or a cushioned fall,
the fact is
-- while falling in LOVE –-
we also fall and fail...
like fall from GRACE
fall from DIGNITY
fall from whatever we hold dear and honorable
an unending TUMBLE, down, down and OUT
the climb back
which is harder
for we know that in falling
there is NONE around
then your own being
having to do the 'hard job'
of collecting and reshaping
all those broken pieces…
fragile -- as in shattered?
it is the senses
that those insensible enough in love,
indulge in with blatant insensitivity
a merger of the 'sOUL'
when the sOUL in question
is something that our eyes don't see
much like the formless, sexless, etc, etc,
that we worship,
and despite his apparent NOTHINGNESS
-- its amazing that he has brains
and intervenes in 'affairs of Man'
with his 'hands' and we go on to say
'LOVE is made in hEAVEN!'
-- now beat that?
cause FALL as hard and heavy as we do
the swim back UP from the dark pits
from the whirlpool that has sucked us
into an Oceanic Grief,
long and horrific as it may be
is one we must do –
for tired as we may become
we long, much too much for that one
LONG BREATH – up in the open
ALIVE --- whoa!!
we will decide to 'fall' again
but for one like me,
'Comfortable in my sorrows'
which none, but I am to blame
I seek solace in solitude
for religious I never was,
yet the 'spirit' in me tells me
Think of your ONE gOD ......
could you be LONELIER then hIM? "